I work in a very nice building and a nice office. However, when you walk in our office, you could cut the negativity with a knife. It is SO hard for me to explain to anyone, but this office is the most negative that I have ever worked in. I wonder over and over why I am here. I am a very positive person. But, when you work in a negative world, it is easy to be drawn into the negativity of others.
We have a woman who works here that is so hateful and bitter to everyone. I can’t help but wonder what is going on in her life that causes her behavior. But, every morning, I walk in and I say “Good morning” to her. Sometimes, I get a grumble; sometimes nothing at all and ever once in a while, I will actual hear a “Good Morning” back. My co-worker cannot understand why I even make the attempt when the day before I have been snapped at by this person! But, I persevere. I really do want to brighten her day, but not sure that is happening.
Two of my co-workers are always telling me that life seems easy for me. And, that life is a drudge for them; everything always goes bad for them. I try to explain that when you think negative, you get negative and when you think positive, you get positive. You are what you think. They can’t grasp that concept as of yet.
My daily prayer is that God will either help me to be satisfied with what I am doing here in this negative world or that he will open a door for another opportunity. He opened a door once before and I was blind to it or ignored it. So, I’m praying for better vision and another door, if that is what He wants for my life. In the meantime, I have heard from Him that He wants me to be a positive force in a negative world. So, for now, that is what I am trying to do.
This week, our word to observe is Kindness! I am trying to be kind to everyone here no matter what is given back to me. I remember that we must give without expectation of reciprocity. I will keep my eyes open for those acts of kindness toward me that are very hard to see in this office. My Bible Study today says that you can see light or you can see darkness in any storm. We can choose to see light, believing it is there and we can see it with correct vision in faith. That is what I am believing.
As for a door to open for me, I know it will one day. In the meantime, I will do as God has asked me to and to be a positive light in a negative world. I will be kind even though I see no kindness around me. I will see my problems here as opportunities. Hanaael says in Scroll IV that
I have been given eyes to see and a mind to think and now I know a great secret of life for I perceive, at last, that all my problems, discouragements, and heartaches are, in truth, great opportunities in disguise.